Over Labeled

Sooo I was walking down the road with my boyfriend one day and this total stranger (and asshole) yelled FREAAAAAAAK from his car while they were driving by.

I instantly assumed it was me for a couple of reasons.. I had been called freak lots of times before at school...and my hair is blue lol

I oftedn joked that I'm a freak of nature and so on but... hearing it again, just like I had heard in school at Singapore. Well it hit something.

I spent the rest of the day or so with an awful feeling in my chest. It's like even though I thought I had gotten over the pain and I was even joking about it, it really never really did seem to stop hurting.

I hate the idea of going back to the times where I was bullied. Every time I feel something or see someone acting the same way they acted to me then, I feel horrible and I'm terrified.

I guess you never really get over being so badly bullied.... but we just have to keep going on :)

I'm curious...
What would you like to know about me?

...nothing creepy, hopefully

When I was about 11 or 12 years old, I was put into the 'slow class' because my school figured that if I have aspergers then I must be stupid.

So I spent a year in this class finishing my work way before everyone and then talking to the guy who didn't even do his work. We then got separated and then so when I finished my work we used to roll bouncy balls to each other across the room behind everyone else.

What I'm really getting at I guess is that just because you have aspergers does NOT mean you are stupid. Sure it might take me longer to understand some things but at most subjects I'm really quite fast.

So don't let the teachers just put your child in this class.
In the end when I moved classes, I had to learn a lot of shit because the teacher really didn't teach me everything that the other classes were learning. So the class was really shit and I still feel offended that I was put into it.

When I was younger I was told that I would probably not graduate school (probably because of the HSC years) and I would defientely never graduate Uni.

I have finished school with a UAI of 78 and I got into my Uni degree of choice without even having to go through any loop holes.

Sometimes I think its best not to listen to teachers who know nothing about you (or your child) because they don't know what they are truly capable of.

So I guess what I'm saying here is (and no im not quoting that idiot justin bieber) Never say Never. Just keep believing in your self or your child. Don't set limitations or say that they can't do something. Humans are amazing creatures and we will even surprise ourselves.

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Because of my insomnia I often just don't want to sleep. Most people I meet think this is...well crazy. It's the truth though.
I honestly wish I could plug myself into a wall like a machine and just you know charge up like a machine. Then when I'm charging I could totally be writing books.

I honestly would just be happy with only having to sleep about 3hrs a day though :P Like if I got 20% REM sleep like everyone else thats all I would have to sleep. Then I could spend the rest of the 21hrs living my life.
I especially want this as I feel like I waste a lot of my time by well doing stupid stuff like procastination but also by sleeping in so much because I'm so tired from the stupid 3.7% REM sleep.

I guess I'm just really hoping that one day someone will magically make me able to have 20% REM sleep just like everybody else.

Soooooo I've heard you can't comment... can you tell me if this is true or not by trying to comment here?

I really hope it's not true because that will be a real nuisance...

-Aura

Maybe we shouldn't say people with aspergers have obsessions.. maybe passion is a better and well niceer word.

Sure we might obsess but well we can create magical stuff out of these obsesssions, so maybe Passion works better?

Pretty much each kid with aspergers has an obsession.
Mine was animals, or more specifically mammals... or very specifically, wolves.

I fucking love wolves.
Like it doesn't matter if I'm all grown up, I still love wolves.


I got over talking about animals all the time when I was about 12...but when I was getting bullied in year 8, I dived into an obsession of xmen.

I got over that when I moved to Australia.

Though I still feel like in the end I have always had one obsession overall. Words. I love words, and I love writing. I want to be a published author. I write graphic novels, comics, scripts, novels and manga. I dream of these getting published or at least read/seen by a lot of people.

So what does this have to do with you?
I guess its just me saying, we don't get over obsessions. I still love wolves to death, I still love Xmen, and I still write stories all the time.
It doesn't mean its a bad thing, if anything it makes talented at our obsession (as we practice it so much) and therefore we can get a job in what we love :D

So don't worry about your childs obsession, just roll with it

So I thought I would tell you a bit about my life now so you know how I'm doing.

I'm 21.
I live in Australia.
I have a great loving boyfriend, who is a total gentlemen and is like perfect :P
I have good friends.
I go to university studying a BA in creative writing
I have a job
I have a social life
I'm trying to become a published author
and most importantly I'm happy

thats what I think people would like to know
to know that there child could be like this
and they so easily can be
just keep believing in them

When I was a child no one really thought I would go to university, but here I am studying at one of the best universities in sydney. I also balance my job, assesements, boy friend and my social life. So I think I proved a damn lot of people wrong. :D

I was bullied from pre-school till about year 10.
I often joke that I was even bullied when I was a fetus as the doctors tried to get my mother to abort me. (but that was because they thought I had no brain and my mum got angry and went to another doctor and they went...its right here and sooooooo yeah :P)

This obviously isn't enough for you to understand but I guess it's a beginning.

When I was in pre-school, I was bullied just by one person.
I was bullied by like one or two people till about grade 6 or so then I could feel the whole year turning on me. It was in year 8 that my whole year did turn on me, they hated my guts. Shunned me. Yelled at me. Teased me. Threw things at me. I once even had to hide in the toilets at lunch time, like in those stupid movies, to get away from their abuse.
It only really got better cause I moved countries but I still got bullied a bit when I moved to Australia. When I was in year 10 or so I believe it finally stopped.

Its very complicated, I went to 9 schools in my life time and I've lived in 3 different countries but yeah... Here is a small look at it I guess.

What I'm really trying to get across was I was bullied and bullied badly, but in the end it made me into a very strong person. It made me to be able to cope with nearly anything. So I guess in the end... maybe its a good thing I was bullied so consitently...

Right now my hair is dyed blue.



People ask me why and I guess the reason is I love blue, blue hair is cool and I guess I do like being different.

I think that in the end I have accepted I'm different and there is no use hiding it so I might as well show it off and have some fun.

I love my blue hair and I get complimented about it all the time :D

Soooo yeah... I grew up being bullied about being different all my life and in the end I'm very proud of being different.