Touchy Feely
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To my dear parents... I advice you not to read this, but if you do continue its your choice.
I've never been much of a touchy feely person.
I wasn't really a huggy person as a kid. My mum describes me as all elbows and knees... so I'm guessing I just wasn't soft and couldn't stay still for hugs :P
When I grew older, I was even less touchy and feely. I think this is because of all my bullying and maybe even some of my violent nightmares.
The idea of sex terrified me when I was about 14 years of age. I think it was because all of nightmares about rape, and the fact that people very rarely touched me plesently (aka I was hurt a lot).
In the end though, I guess I had great friends and two great boyfriends (one is still my boyfriend) and...they helped me. My friends at school made me more huggy and so on, so I've spent the last three or four years hugging a lot of people and joking that I've been making up for lost time. My boyfriends always understood that I was...worried and let me do everything in my time.
So I guess the end bit is and the reason I didn't want my parents to read this is.. I'm not scared of sex anymore. Actually I'm not a virgin anymore and have sex quite consitently with my wonderful boy friend now.
Soo in the end even though I was never touchy through my whole life I'm fine with sex now and I love to hug people. I hug total strangers now. :D
So don't worry if you child doesn't like to hug. Just give them time and support :D
I've never been much of a touchy feely person.
I wasn't really a huggy person as a kid. My mum describes me as all elbows and knees... so I'm guessing I just wasn't soft and couldn't stay still for hugs :P
When I grew older, I was even less touchy and feely. I think this is because of all my bullying and maybe even some of my violent nightmares.
The idea of sex terrified me when I was about 14 years of age. I think it was because all of nightmares about rape, and the fact that people very rarely touched me plesently (aka I was hurt a lot).
In the end though, I guess I had great friends and two great boyfriends (one is still my boyfriend) and...they helped me. My friends at school made me more huggy and so on, so I've spent the last three or four years hugging a lot of people and joking that I've been making up for lost time. My boyfriends always understood that I was...worried and let me do everything in my time.
So I guess the end bit is and the reason I didn't want my parents to read this is.. I'm not scared of sex anymore. Actually I'm not a virgin anymore and have sex quite consitently with my wonderful boy friend now.
Soo in the end even though I was never touchy through my whole life I'm fine with sex now and I love to hug people. I hug total strangers now. :D
So don't worry if you child doesn't like to hug. Just give them time and support :D
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