Over Labeled

My friend told me that I'm actually pretty cool.... it really surprised me. It's supposedely because I accept who I am and that I am different, and that I'm not going to change just because people don't like me being so different.

Anyway just something to think about.... being yourself really is the best thing and even if you're not the traditional 'cool' I guess you are still cool because you don't let anyone tell you who to be.

Note: If your child says that he is being teased or bullied, he probably is. Kid's are extremely cruel and seem to have a great sense on instantly finding out who his different and making their life hell. So please do listen to your kids if they say something like they are looking at me funny or something, they might be just imagining it but from my experience... it's just leading up to the real teasing and bullying.

So my latest obsession is what I'm sure is many other peoples latest obsession because it is ALLLLLL over the internet. The obsession is... My Little Pony...


I'm totally in love with My Little Pony lately, and yes it is a children's tv show but the characters, animation and the script is great so I love it to bits. I even made my own OC, Thunder Chaser


Maybe this won't mean much to the general people who I expect to read this blog, as it has nothing to do with me living with my aspergers, adhd, insomnia and depression or anything like that but I guess it does show that having obsessions as someone with Aspergers doesn't really change. The obsessions just change over time ...  I may be a bit too obsessed with my own character right now as my boyfriend tells me all I'm talking about is ponies. Nevertheless he doesn't seem to care too much. I guess I'm saying accept that you or the person you will know will really latch on to something and obsess the hell out of it once and a while. It happens.  :D

-Aura

If I hear one more person talk about Aspergers or ADHD like it's a disease... well I'm gonna end up hitting them. There are way too many people who actually go on about well they can't help it, they have a disease. OR people that are actually scared to hang around people like me because they are scared they're actually going to catch what I have.
This truly sickens me. Like I can deal with it and I've learnt how to but to think other kids are going through this just makes me want to hit the people who have these presumptions.

I was at a bible camp studying for the hsc (I'm not relgious but it was the only study camp and I REALLY needed to get some study done) and well we somehow got on to the discussion of Aspergers and how some people with aspergers rather not be around people. No one in that silly little bible group knew I had aspergers and so someone came out and said "Well those people are sick so of course they would want that" and I just looked her in the eyes and said... I  have aspergers. Whole room went silent.

So yeah... people seem to actually believe that aspergers or/and adhd is a disease and not only is it an illness but its something you can catch from other people. Something is terribly wrong with this...

When I was 12 years old I was intereviewd for this book called 'Asperger Syndrome, adolescence, and identity' by Harvey Molloy and Latika Vasil. They intereviewed me as a young teenager having Aspergers. You can actually buy the book and read a whole chapter about me (Chapter 4) Sarah's Story. Yeah they gave me a fake name in case I was embaressed about being in the book later on. They also gave my family and friend's fake names...but all the stuff about me is there.

Such as me when I was 12 I told the man interviewing me, 'One friend even emailed me saying, "You're just not my type. You're not the kind of friend who I'd hang around with."' and 'I was tested for ADHD when I was about seven or eight. My Mum thought I acted strangely so I got tested'

It's always interesting to re-read what I said...but some parts also make me feel kinda sad because it reminds me how much people made fun of me for being different. Anyway the books there if you ever want to read it and I guess learn a bit more about me :P

I might post more bits from it later on... 

-Aura

I'm wondering if I should advertise my blog.
I mean I've already put my blog up on my facebook (which hardly anyone noticed...) but I mean really advertise. Putting up banners or those little icons on other peoples sites. Writing about it in my journals on the random sites I'm part of.. and so on and so forth...

What do you guys think?
Is this a worthy thing to advertise?
Will it mean anything to anyone?

So I was at work tonight and I was trying to describe my blog to some co-workers. It was really odd... I guess I've never told them that I have adhd, aspergers, insomnia, depression blah blah blah lol. So they were just standing them looking at me with full interest and in weird silence... it made me feel weird.
Like maybe what I was doing was important.. or maybe it was just really odd. Maybe I was just really odd... but then again we already know that IS true.

Anyway what I'm saying is ... trying to describe my blogs to others is really weird and kinda hard. I try to explain that I want to show the view of someone with aspergers because people seem so interested and that I kind of want to help people with aspergers or their parents who are well honestly scared. I guess in the end I'm not totally sure why I'm writing this blog but I do hope that it helps some people.

On the good side my co-worker now said he would check out my blog :)
So I guess this post is for you Melvin!

So I got a big can of V yesterday at about 11pm. Not a good idea....
I drank about half of it and I was seriously up to 4 or 5am

It makes me wonder what would have happened if I drank the whole thing lol

I drank a monster shot once a few months ago and I got sooooooo hyper, it also made my heart felt weird so that can't be good.

So I guess in the end what I'm trying to say is someone with ADHD having an energy drink is probably a really bad idea. I want to jump and dance and I can hardly concentrate. I mean its like ADHD x 2 XD

Nevertheless I love those energy drinks and lots of sugar. I mean I'm drinking a slurpee and eating a curly wurly right now XXD

Sorry guys for not posting for ages.
Life just got in the way as usual and I guess I really didn't know what to post. Luckily I just made a list of like ten ideas for posts so I will be posting those up over this month :D
But if you guys want to know anything or have an idea on what I should post PLEASE tell me ...or I may just run out of ideas again ><

Soooo I'm holding my breath cause I just shared this blog on my facebook to all my friends. (and I mean my friends not just people I add, unlike other people who believe everyone on fb is their friend. Anyway I did the private sharing and sent it only to the people on a list I call 'People I like talking to')

So why am I holding my breath are you asking?
Well.... I'm honestly scared that people will judge me

I might not have told this story to many people but ... when I was about in grade 8, I had this best friend who I cant even remember the name of anymore. Anyway she had heard all these rumours of me acting like a wolf when I was a younger and too scared to admit they were true, I said they were all lies.

Then one day we were going into assembly and she was talking about these rumours and I took a deep breath and said some of them were true. She gave me this horrified look and .... she never talked to me again after that.

I guess... I'm just scared the same thing is going to happen again.
*sigh*
But I guess if you guys can't accept who I am totally, you aren't really my friends...
I just really hope you do accept it...

*is scared and waiting*


p.s. I'm just scared of sharing it with my friends... go ahead and share it to loads of others. I do want this blog to help other people after all.

Another question by SM :D

'Hi Aura,
I knew it took me a longtime to get over being bullied at school. I'm still supersensitive to hearing about bullying and hate get very assertive when people put me down even now.
It does get better with time. I especially felt better when other people starting to embrace and appreciate my weird ways .Hang in there!
I also have another question (you didn't answer my last one)
Anyway, I know someone that is struggling a bit now as a young aspie teen with being bullied at school .Anyway, the teachers are saying the usual line that their behaviour is provoking the other kids . Were there any books, films, groups or anything that helped you embrace your aspie difference and feel better about yourself as a young teen ?
Thanks
SM'


Well thanks for another question SM
The honest answer to this I guess is that just to look for strong characters in books and films. Because in the end all you can really be is strong. The thing that I think that this aspie should know is that it ISNT his fault. Someone teasing him is their fault, not his. If he isn't hurting anyone then how could it be his fault?!
Sooo yeah
the only advice I can give this young aspie is to remember that they are in the right and to be strong because they are who they are and nothing is going to change it. It's the people who are hurting him because of him being who he is, is in the wrong. They are the ones who need to change their way, not the other way around.
They are fine. The others are in the wrong.

Does this make sense?
I hope so

-Aura

So the question was:
'I would like to know how you get on with other people with Aspergers.
Do you find yourself making friends more often with Aspies or "neurotypicals " ? How does it feel when you meet others that say they have Aspergers? Thanks -SM'

Well SM,
I get along with other people with aspergers better then I guess most other people that don't understand aspergers. I had a best friend with aspergers and we got along very well. Lately I don't have any friends with aspergers though.
I do find myself making friends with people that are more 'weird' then 'normal', if thats what you mean. They don't often have aspergers but they are more geeky and weird against others I guess.
When people tell me that they have aspergers, I am honestly intrigued and want to be their friend. I sadly learnt from past experience though that not all people with aspergers are nice... so I'm not as enthuasiastic when learning about someone having aspergers as I was before.

Want to know more?
Just ask :D

Thanks for the question
-Aura

Sooo I was walking down the road with my boyfriend one day and this total stranger (and asshole) yelled FREAAAAAAAK from his car while they were driving by.

I instantly assumed it was me for a couple of reasons.. I had been called freak lots of times before at school...and my hair is blue lol

I oftedn joked that I'm a freak of nature and so on but... hearing it again, just like I had heard in school at Singapore. Well it hit something.

I spent the rest of the day or so with an awful feeling in my chest. It's like even though I thought I had gotten over the pain and I was even joking about it, it really never really did seem to stop hurting.

I hate the idea of going back to the times where I was bullied. Every time I feel something or see someone acting the same way they acted to me then, I feel horrible and I'm terrified.

I guess you never really get over being so badly bullied.... but we just have to keep going on :)

I'm curious...
What would you like to know about me?

...nothing creepy, hopefully

When I was about 11 or 12 years old, I was put into the 'slow class' because my school figured that if I have aspergers then I must be stupid.

So I spent a year in this class finishing my work way before everyone and then talking to the guy who didn't even do his work. We then got separated and then so when I finished my work we used to roll bouncy balls to each other across the room behind everyone else.

What I'm really getting at I guess is that just because you have aspergers does NOT mean you are stupid. Sure it might take me longer to understand some things but at most subjects I'm really quite fast.

So don't let the teachers just put your child in this class.
In the end when I moved classes, I had to learn a lot of shit because the teacher really didn't teach me everything that the other classes were learning. So the class was really shit and I still feel offended that I was put into it.

When I was younger I was told that I would probably not graduate school (probably because of the HSC years) and I would defientely never graduate Uni.

I have finished school with a UAI of 78 and I got into my Uni degree of choice without even having to go through any loop holes.

Sometimes I think its best not to listen to teachers who know nothing about you (or your child) because they don't know what they are truly capable of.

So I guess what I'm saying here is (and no im not quoting that idiot justin bieber) Never say Never. Just keep believing in your self or your child. Don't set limitations or say that they can't do something. Humans are amazing creatures and we will even surprise ourselves.

Yay I managed to get the comments working!!!
So please comment away!
I truly look forward to reading the comments from my beloved readers :D

Because of my insomnia I often just don't want to sleep. Most people I meet think this is...well crazy. It's the truth though.
I honestly wish I could plug myself into a wall like a machine and just you know charge up like a machine. Then when I'm charging I could totally be writing books.

I honestly would just be happy with only having to sleep about 3hrs a day though :P Like if I got 20% REM sleep like everyone else thats all I would have to sleep. Then I could spend the rest of the 21hrs living my life.
I especially want this as I feel like I waste a lot of my time by well doing stupid stuff like procastination but also by sleeping in so much because I'm so tired from the stupid 3.7% REM sleep.

I guess I'm just really hoping that one day someone will magically make me able to have 20% REM sleep just like everybody else.

Soooooo I've heard you can't comment... can you tell me if this is true or not by trying to comment here?

I really hope it's not true because that will be a real nuisance...

-Aura

Maybe we shouldn't say people with aspergers have obsessions.. maybe passion is a better and well niceer word.

Sure we might obsess but well we can create magical stuff out of these obsesssions, so maybe Passion works better?