Freak
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Sooo I was walking down the road with my boyfriend one day and this total stranger (and asshole) yelled FREAAAAAAAK from his car while they were driving by.
I instantly assumed it was me for a couple of reasons.. I had been called freak lots of times before at school...and my hair is blue lol
I oftedn joked that I'm a freak of nature and so on but... hearing it again, just like I had heard in school at Singapore. Well it hit something.
I spent the rest of the day or so with an awful feeling in my chest. It's like even though I thought I had gotten over the pain and I was even joking about it, it really never really did seem to stop hurting.
I hate the idea of going back to the times where I was bullied. Every time I feel something or see someone acting the same way they acted to me then, I feel horrible and I'm terrified.
I guess you never really get over being so badly bullied.... but we just have to keep going on :)
I instantly assumed it was me for a couple of reasons.. I had been called freak lots of times before at school...and my hair is blue lol
I oftedn joked that I'm a freak of nature and so on but... hearing it again, just like I had heard in school at Singapore. Well it hit something.
I spent the rest of the day or so with an awful feeling in my chest. It's like even though I thought I had gotten over the pain and I was even joking about it, it really never really did seem to stop hurting.
I hate the idea of going back to the times where I was bullied. Every time I feel something or see someone acting the same way they acted to me then, I feel horrible and I'm terrified.
I guess you never really get over being so badly bullied.... but we just have to keep going on :)
1 comments:
Hi Aura,
I knew it took me a longtime to get over being bullied at school. I'm still supersensitive to hearing about bullying and hate get very assertive when people put me down even now.
It does get better with time. I especially felt better when other people starting to embrace and appreciate my weird ways .Hang in there!
I also have another question (you didn't answer my last one)
Anyway, I know someone that is struggling a bit now as a young aspie teen with being bullied at school .Anyway, the teachers are saying the usual line that their behaviour is provoking the other kids . Were there any books, films, groups or anything that helped you embrace your aspie difference and feel better about yourself as a young teen ?
Thanks
SM
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